DreAmZ 2 R3ALiTY...

Ai

2011-12-04T14:37:00.003+08:00

"You might be blind."

Felt the world stopped, as I lied still on the chair.

"But don't worry, not so soon."

Thanks Doc, as if that helps. Zzz

Seems like it's a family inheritance thing... It skips through siblings, even in the previous generation.

Sometimes, I visualize myself being in such a state.....wonder how am I going to dress up..... wonder how am I going to read (wait, I can't..unless Braille)...wonder how am I gonna play the piano...the guitar...

Well, that is a few that I thought of... What about the ones I love? I won't be able to see their faces again... Hmm...ok, maybe I AM thinking too much. I am not officially blind yet. So, live life to the fullest! Cheerz~ =)

A little info for friends who keep asking what's wrong with my eyes... High fluid pressure in the eye. Glaucoma is one disease I might contract in the future. *touches wood* Hope NOT!

http://www.isecmalaysia.com/pinfo_glaucoma.htm

EPA/DHA helps to prevent...claims our house's very own Doctor Quack..hehehe...

EuphoriA

2011-10-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Wee~ I passed my Grade 5 piano theory with a DISTINCTION (91/100)! Woohoo! As for my practical, the breakdown is not back yet, but teacher say I got quite a high mark for it too! *jumping.... rolling.... swaying... jiving*

............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ (few seconds later)

Back to earth, maybe I shouldn't be too happy about it, after all, it was just a small exam. (BUT IT MEANT A LOT TO ME!) If it was Law Paper, THEN I should be setting banquets! LOLz

I know I could not just indulge in this temporary success, because it only means there are more higher & tougher levels to achieve in the future. To make my way up there, it's a long way! Whatever that is awaiting you, RJ, gambateh! This is one thing in life that keeps your momentum going! Up, up and away! >_^v

Look to the left...Look to the right....

2011-09-23T23:08:00.001+08:00

Lately, I've been spending much time with this gurl in the pic...

Especially since u left....

~*~

I can tell u the truth, nobody in this world is really that WILLING to sit down and listen to ur grandmother story...blabbering on and on like nobody's business. Even if they claim how much they would, they are just being kind by saying that... by all means, THANKS (but no thanks), because in fact... u just will NOT! Try me? I can't stand it too...for the same person to keep coming back and telling me the same old story that I have been hearing for repeatedly...like...a thousand times? Oh boy! zzzzz Not that I like to, but I am just doing it as a friend.....

Yani oh Yani...How I wish u are still staying under the same roof as me...'cos u are the one and only true listener! T.T Without fail, every night on the dining table..u will just enthusiastically listen to all that I have to say.... U know everything that my family doesn't bother to care... All my friends, u've not seen them personally...but u surely know each of them by name, and their characters and personalities... The boy that I have a crush on... u're definitely the first one to know!! LOLz

If u were still here, I would tell u.....

I have some very interesting course mates...haha... their names are Wai Yee, Catherine and Jodie. We played a lot in class. The closest one to me (Wai Yee), we no longer study at the same institution. But I still misses her... We still keep in touch though...

I would tell u....

I still haven't found my prince charming yet... but (whispering)....I think I kind of *ahem ahem* someone in class! >__<

I would tell u....

on & on & on & on!!!!

Well, those were the days... No matter how much I would like to turn back time, it just won't work that way... we all knew it...this is life! I've tried looking for ur replacement. And found none. Sad, isn't it?!

But I wish u best of luck back at ur hometown. I wish Yudi is taking good care of u. I wish ur 1st child is on his way...hehehehe~

Perhaps I will just have to learn to be (MORE) independent. Convince myself...so what if I am alone, I'm not lonely, right?

~*~

SIGH

-$-- D Cataly$t -$-

2011-09-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

After class, got stuck in a typical afternoon jam....It was a chaotic scene at the Sin Chew Daily roundabout (crossroad soon to be...for goodness sake, what is taking them so long to complete the task!!!).

Oh well, fortunate for me....saw my "BEAUTY" on da road... enough to make my day!! Oh yeah~

Momma once told me, "Become a partner of the firm, I'll get you one."

And I was like...

...........................................................

..........................................................

SWT!

A taste of heaven beyond~

2011-08-11T01:27:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I am not an alcoholic, or an alcohol lover, but I have to say, these are those that made me asked for more! mmmmMMMMMmmmmmm~!

And the lucky winners are......

AND

Love Life, Love MuSiC

2011-08-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

I have a confession to make....

I fell in love with the 5 letter words which brought me life in this mundane world...

As one says it....

To me, life is all about this...

Without it, I maybe breathing, but I won't be living....

Only HumAn

2011-05-31T23:12:00.000+08:00

Trying to play the role of a good Samaritan? You should have known it has never meant to be easy. Why cover yourself with dung and shit? You should have stayed away from TROUBLE. I assure you, life will be so much easier!

An important lesson, what you think is best for a person, s/he will not think the same. Even if u pretty sure it is, if s/he does not buy your caring thoughts, your generosity is on its way down the filthy drain! Wasted!

My heart is aching a little, how could the other party confront me with such hostile tone? I do not think I deserve to be treated this way. I have played "nice" all these while, trying only to please, and I had enough, it's time to have a stand of my own.

Perhaps I am just wasting my time. Someone once told me to let go, for it is bothering me too much. But I insisted to persevere, thinking that there is a turning point. Yeap, no doubt, there is...but I will have to pay a huge ransom, am I willing? Ugh, well, gimme a break!

I'll consider again, later~~

Dreamz 2 ReaLiTY

2011-05-24T22:13:00.006+08:00

Tonight, I felt restless. I felt my heartbeat once again, as you played this wonderful piece.

A tear rolled down and wet my pillow...was it because I yawned? Or was it because of other undue reasons?

But one thing for sure, I'm glad...I finally had the ability to feature myself....

On the piano...I sat....involuntarily, my fingers ran through the blacks and whites... my eyes were closed....my heart, as still as the calm river... i was wearing white....on a white grand piano....very dimmed blue light...

I wish this is where I am heading, both in dreamland and in reality....my destination, and my DESTINY.

May my soul rest in peace tonight.

Recent lifestyle

2011-05-16T09:45:00.008+08:00

Whoa, was in Starbucks Coffee from 11am to 11pm (12 hours OMG!!). What else could I be doing? Studying... Exam period Starbucks is my second home, I'm sure it is for many other hardworking students out there! XD Well, I'm not (hardworking), but trying to be! Ehehehe!

Gotta salute my elder sis for her diligence and serious attitude towards her studies and exams, it was her who reminds me of my duty as a student, and my covenant I had with my God and my beloved, dearest Mommy... So ya, uh-ni, gam-sa-ham-ni-da! All da best for ur exams as well, u are always in my prayers! =D

Well, it is difficult to sleep these days, could it be the coffee I had in Starbucks? It is rather inevitable isn't it? It is like the "membership card" or "entry pass" for u to enter Starbucks, hehe... Don't ask me why not take the tea? Tried, juz not my type! Ughh! =.=" Oh well, coffee is good too, keeps my zombified eyes on da notes! O.O

It's been a few nights I traveled between my bed and my study desk, I know I should be sleeping, but my eyes won't rest, so I head to the desk, my mind won't feed in the notes! What the~ What do u want me to do!! Y.Y

So, came back from Starbucks, took a shower, did my devotion, finish up my piano theory, lied on bed.... 5 mins, 15 mins, 45 mins, 105 mins has passed... I was still staring at the ceiling, for heaven sake! Y.Y

It's okay, perhaps dream a little dream of my dream will do the trick, so I tried to visualise...me, on da stage... singing.... with a guitar in hand... After few seconds, I find it kinda difficult to continue, why? Fine, maybe listening to the radio helps to "lubricate" the path of my dream... No longer as easy as I always do in the past... Instantly, I knew something was not right, something needs to be done, QUICK! I have to rekindle my first love to u, dear Music... I am so sorry, like a relationship, I seem to be betraying u, because I am "seeing" someone else -- Law. But u know, my heart is always with u. It's an undeniable fact, believe me, I still love u...

D@Re 2 DR3@M

2011-03-01T23:07:00.013+08:00

People thinks I'm dreaming, they make funny remarks.. I know I am, but I can't be bothered. If I give in & listen, there is when the thoughts start sinking in, & they will stay on my minds for days & never leave! Voices saying, I'm no good, I can't hit high notes, my singing sucks, my looks are flat! What else did I miss?! Name it all, I no longer care!

I never dare to say it out loud, all these while, I've kept it deep in my heart, I can hold it no more... I gonna release my confession! ............... I LOVE SINGING!!! Perhaps God saw me struggling, He made me changed my lens of perception. So what if my voice isn't the best? So what if I'm only gonna release my very first album and the also the very last? So what if I will never be famous? Just let me do whatever I like, at least I will never bring along regrets to my grave. I give it a try and won't feel sorry for myself. For this is die-hard fact: I DO LOVE SINGING! Music is my all! Cheers~

There there, I said it loud and clear... Laugh all you want! =.=" But keep it to yourself, I have no time to install your negativity... I'm on my way to realise my dream!

At least, I DARE TO DREAM BIG! Today, have u?

FAMILY - Father and Mother I Love You

2011-01-07T13:07:00.005+08:00

Today's news : China implemented the law, children owe a legal duty to take care of old-aged parents.

Legal duty? More of like moral duty? Or shouldn't even be a duty, it is an act of love!

There is also such a statute, Children and Young Persons Act 1933, to ensure that children will be taken good care of, or else parents will be liable for any resulting harm.

Anyway, am still glad to hear such a law exists! Just wondering when will we emphasize this issue too...

I don't have to say much...No doubt parents love us too much...They provide all that we need when we could not afford, when time comes, they are old and no longer the bread winner...we are capable to feed ourselves, don't we think of them too?

Just spend some time to reflect... the days you are being nurtured, being loved, being treated as princes and princesses of the family.

Do not wait for time to pass drastically and later regret on their graves, your tears will not work to rewind passed time! Love them now, or never!

UNICEF: Stop Child Abuse Now!

2010-11-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

UNICEF: Stop Child Abuse Now!

+~=COURTESY=~+

2010-10-22T22:59:00.010+08:00

+ COURTESY +

Nice word. But it's nicer when it is practiced and acted upon.

Your smile brighten up one's day.

A handshake enables an exploration of one's life.

Help needed? Use the magic word!

The powerful two words!

Courtesy is more than that! May we learn...

Have a great day ahead! =D

Pay the system!

2010-10-15T12:08:00.007+08:00

Many lose hope in our country's prosecution system. Too much corruption, they say. Blame who? Blame YOU, ME and EVERYBODY! Why?

When you are stopped by a traffic police, you wind down the window...

Police : IC dan Lesen Memandu.

You : Bang, bagi "chance" lah...

Police : Sekarang macam mana?

You : Ni, duit kopi...

Sounds familiar? This is why our system sucks! Tell me how to stop corruption? How to stop bribery? If all we know is to make our life easy by "paying" our way out!

"What are you gonna be in the future?" Asked by a friend. "A lawyer." "Wah, it's a dark field!" O____O" Oh ya? I then answered, "Well, in every field, there can be both bright and dark sides. For me, I WILL be the light carrier." I always believe there is HOPE!

Till then, in a meeting with a bunch of young, practising lawyers. One of them (the most senior one), works in the criminal field. So he deals with the prosecution service most of his time, I asked him how to deliberately work with them (policemen)? He said, "Do things the LAWFUL way." What about the 'saman' thing? "Pay the system, not the personnel."

Well said. Kudos for Malaysia's future! See, told ya there is HOPE! >__^

Hoping for HOPES

2010-09-02T17:37:00.005+08:00

Money money MONEY....$$$$$$......it's no longer a rich man's world...

The value of money has constantly increased these years, due to inflation, and so it is to me... T.T I find that nowadays I desperately wanting money...zzz.. Am looking for ways to earn some, yet not distracting my studies and certainly, LAWFULLY! (p/s: I'm a LAW student mar!) Anyone with good ideas or ways? Help needed... T-T"

With the extra income, I wanna :

pay off my own school fees, piano fees...etc. Fed up of asking, being dodged around with uncertainties, swt!
get a new car!! One with better performance than dear old Sporty (it's pathetic), saves petrol and environmental friendly. No worries of sudden breakdown. =__=
BLESS MY DADDY, MOMMY, CHE CHE & LI'L SCHUEY! =)
this is for real, I WANNA HELP those in need, their necessaries are my deepest concern. Frankly speaking, contribution of energy and effort is good, but with the help of FINANCE, more things can be done!

I am already entering the third week of classes in KDU, yet many of my classmates, not to mention the March intake students, even many of the August intake (my batch), till now I can't match their names with their faces! Gosh!

I finally found the joy of being given a chance to education. I understand that many children and individuals are less fortunate when it comes to the access of being a literate person. That is why I will treasure it and give my best shot this time round!

To my fellow classmates who happens to read my blog, (I doubt so though)... If u ever see me daydreaming or "fishing" in class, nudge me hard! I will be very grateful, belanja u makan also can! Hehe... =P

Well well, am very excited about the event "Change Your World" as it will be a good platform for me to reach out to the right group of people... Of course, it will also definitely be an eye opener for me. Changing my perception towards government too... rather than we keep criticizing, let's see what we can do to make our country a better place to be. No point the repetitive critics, we see the problems, but we need solutions! If you have the time to facebook, please DO NOT tell me you don't have the time for THIS... Though many had turned me down when I tried to encourage them to join such a meaningful movement, giving me answers with negativities, such like.... "There is no more hope for our nation, it is useless... Too corrupted... etc" Deep inside the core of my heart, I know, I can feel the heartbeat, that there is HOPE, ENDLESS HOPE. They will see.... some day....some how...

Waking up before it's too late....

2010-08-08T17:14:00.004+08:00

Another new stage of my life, Uni is starting soon enough, it seems like my right foot is ready to march to the awaited future, yet my left foot is holding back... However no matter how they react differently, time is still ticking its way, whether I like it or not, I have to move forward, in order to be in line with the world....

At times I would really love to indulge myself in the past, as if travelling through time machine, I see both of us back in the old place we 1st met, we were both VERY, very young back then... =__= we can play together as crazy as we like, we joked, we quibbled, we had small "fights" ( I will always win, 'cos u gave in to me =P) and all parts and parcels of our memories, still as fresh as yesterday, though it's already some time ago, few years back...

It is my foolishness that gives me false hope, thinking after so many years, after everything in life that is revolving around us changed, if God allows, we can be together... I am not awake yet... but it is about time...

Had a real talk session with my bro, his words enlightened me, "Look into the future, not the past"... YES... Look into the future, and you do not seem to be part of it... How sad it can be, I will have to accept the reality and grow, grow stronger in my willpower. To forget you...

If someone were to ask me, whether I still admire you, my answer would always be "yes", but if they continue to ask, whether we can be together, it will be an obvious "no". You knew it yourself, there is no slight chance for our worlds to meet...

I hereby pledged to myself, to come out from this seem-to-be sweet dream, and step into reality, bring back my focus point to my soon-to-be hectic studies...

God, watch over me... You know I can't do this alone, I always have to count on you, all my life... Amen!

Recycle FREAK!

2010-07-19T16:27:00.004+08:00

Yup, that's me! =D I'm a total freak when it comes to saving Mother Nature. And thanks to that, I keep so much "rubbish" in my room, 'cos I know one day "they" can come in handy when I need them. After all, many of them can be recycled and reused.

Few years back when I was still in high school, I coincidentally "bumped" into an article about 'stapler bullets diet', found it quite interesting and made sense.. It made my mind think a little...

I hope it makes u have a thought too....^___^

Have u ever wonder what stapler bullets are made of? (DUH...) And where do the resources come from? Do u think it can be replenished in a short life time? Think think think...

What worse is that, after we happily stapled our papers together, and later found out we would like to throw it into the waste paper basket as we no longer need that few pieces of papers, which I will not do so if I were u, because the right way to dispose the papers is to RECYCLE them! Then where will these tiny little metal scraps go? Ok, together with other unwanted domestic wastage, then they all go to their new "habitat" and be there forever and EVER! What a waste, don't u think so?

Well, I am not asking u to totally boycott the use of staplers, but I personally think that it will be a better idea to replace them with paper clips, since clips are obviously reusable again and again. Of course I understand sometimes it is just inevitable to do away not using a stapler, well, if there is a chance, take the small step and be a recycle HERO, save the planet! >__^

Lastly folks of the Earth, good luck in lending a helping hand to make a positive difference to make our world a better place. Kudos!

L0v3

2010-06-05T01:19:00.004+08:00

It's ironic yet forseeable, that among us gal friends, the less (or in this case, NEVER) who talks or gossips about guys, is the 1st one to get into relationship! =P I still remember we teasing her, that she will definitely be the 1st one among the four of us, and she used to deny....there there... here she is, coupling already! HAHAHA~~ Funny isn't it?

One thing for sure I've learnt, don't go wasting time chasing over butterflies, yes, they are pretty, but they weren't meant to be held on your palms forever. If you insist of running after them, you might tripped over pebbles on the ground ('cos you are too busy trying to catch it, you didn't notice the obstacles in front of your eye). Worse still if there's a deep pit, and you fell and you have great difficulties getting out of it. HA! Do not let the dreamy fairy tale GOtCHA!

U & I

2010-05-17T12:41:00.004+08:00

7 years of togetherness, seeing your face, hearing your voice every single day, suddenly on the 13th of May 2010, 4.30pm, your plane departed KLIA to Jakarta.. you are leaving for good... There and then, our separation begins its life-long journey. One thing on my mind, though... will we ever meet again??? Where? Here, in Malaysia? Or Indonesia? And when? 1 year? 2 years? or 10 years?

Coming back to reality, everything in this house seems to be the same, in fact, it is no longer... because you are no longer part of it... for every nook and corner of this house, I can "see" you. From the front porch (where u used to wash Daddy Mommy's cars) to the bamboo tree (where u used to sweep the bamboo leaves every morning), from the living room (mooopppping all the way~~) to the kitchen (cooking heavenly gourmet). Whenever I pass by your room, I wish that as I push open the door, u are in there. But once again, reality strikes me... You were not there....

I've been waiting for your call, every minute and second that ticks away made me wonder... Why haven't you call? Didn't you arrive home safely? I don't dare to think of the worse situation...could it be?? NO!! There must be something wrong with the communication system! Yea, that's right!... This is how I convince myself, keep believing that you will call me...

"YEE LAI!!" I am still lying on the sofa like a couch potato when Yeva che che shouted out, quite reluctant to move..."Yani on the phone!" At the speed of lightning, I snatch over the phone...YES! It's that familiar voice, that missed voice... that cheerful laughter, that ear-piercing laughter @__@ IT IS HER, finally she called! Found out the reason of her delay to fulfill her promise, yeap, certified it is the communication problem. She's got difficulty trying to call and sms all the numbers that I given her. Oh well, I'm so HapppEEEE!! ^_____^

Okie, now I have this Monday blues, because both my parents went to work, li'l bro went to class and my elder sis always in her own room... there left me alone, wondering around the house, trying to "capture" your image again in all areas of the house... tears came oozing out like nobody's business~~ Wonder what are u doing now? Having all the fun that you can't enjoy while your stay with us, working so hard everyday to make sure the house is spick-and-span, I guess? Well, you deserve that... Just that, promise me, while you have fun, remember me, do not forget about me... during your free time, write a letter or two to me... I am much satisfied! T____T

MISSING YOU ALWAYS~~~~

LOVE Is In The Air? Think Twice =)

2010-04-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

When you think that love is in the air, do not be in haste, for the best is awaiting u in the near future. If you let yourself be fooled, you might lose out the chance to be with the best choice...

This statement suddenly popped into my mind few days ago and just won't leave, as though urging me to plot it somewhere, and I thought of perhaps... my blog? =_= Once again my dream of a prince charming riding on a white horse, sweeping my legs off as we head to his palace up on the silver lining clouds... has crashed into pieces like a broken vase. Well it's ok, it is not the first time anyway, I'm used to it, or more so, immune to it I would say...

As time flies, it is just made believed that as a person grows, it is harder and harder to convince oneself to continue sparking hope in the term "L-O-V-E". Everyone is seeking love, yet not everyone gets access to it, unless you were speaking of agape love...no doubt, true love is definitely found in our Abba Father. =) But is there really human who can be so selfless when it comes to loving someone sacrificially? This, I doubt... at least for now, I have not seen with my own eyes. It sores my eyes to see people so easily getting into relationships and then breaking up so soon, just to have the feeling of "falling in love". SWT!

Hard not to think about it, because it is already implied in us, since God is love, and since we are created following His image.. we too have love in us. That is why most of us wants to love and be loved.

For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. -- Luke 12:30-31.

Oh well, will stick to this Bible verse...

I'll sing TQ, TQ for Your GREAT LOVE!!

2010-03-14T18:57:00.004+08:00

Juz hanged off our conversation that lasted for almost 1 hour. What we chatted really made me wonder, what is love for these 2 young people. It is inconvenient for me to broadcast their relationships here, but I've made my mind, to care for them more, so from time to time, I will update myself about their well beings. I know as I made this decision, I am actually reminding myself that I am facing somewhat "tiger-rified" (tiger-likeness terrifying situation). Perhaps no one can understand what I mean, but no matter what, I am doing this because I don't want her to get hurt, she trusts and believes in me, treats me as her very best friend. I need to make sure she will not be abused or violated! Even if he is going to take revenge...=.=" I hope by leading them to God, their relationship will change to become better, the TRUE loving couple!

Today, Kawan dedicated himself to respond to altar call. ^^ Father in Heaven, thank You for Kawan's life, I know he is a blessing from You to me. =) I pray that our friendship is watched and maintained by You. Thank You Father for using my life as a vessel to people around me, Amen! Few days ago in CF, as he was sitting beside me, sharing the same bible, listening to Ms. A as she shared the Word, I somehow got this feeling, that one day, this friend of mine will rise up and become a Man of God, one who will serve You and walk by Your side in his daily life. ^___^ Just like other Men of God I see in City Harvest, Ps. Kevin, Keith, David....etc. Lord, is this a vision from You? =__= Anyway, thank You O Lord, what happened today will continue to motivate me to share the Good News! At the same time, remind me O Lord, to be a true and sincere friend to people, and not one that only befriend others for the sake of winning them over to You. Amen!

Another thing that really blessed my heart is...Germaine dear. =) How she grew to be more mature... How young and yet she served the Lord with all her heart and might! Though I am elder than her, I should learn from her. ^^ Amen! TQ Lord..

Ah...Abba Father, TQ that I am living today...to see all Your blessings (over my life and other people's lives), Your selfless love, Your miracles....and more!

ForTE P!AN0

2010-03-08T20:30:00.004+08:00

Dear fellow friends, do not set up the fire flaring in my heart if you do not mean to be serious! =) Yup, I meant the issue of setting our own band....

Am now listening to Mozart's and Beethoven's, trying to hear the differences of both composers mentioned by Ms.Chow just now during my piano class. Well, I sort of have a li'l understanding of why Mozart is usually the chosen choice for babies in the wombs, it is suggested more lively and "light" compared to Beethoven's, perhaps of his tragic incident --lost his hearing at his young age, yet not giving up his music career, from a performer to a composer. I heard from Ms.Chow that Beethoven cut off the leg of the piano, so that he could feel the vibration of it. WOW!

Aiyaiyai, Brother JC keep saying that my dear Hins is a GAY!!! T.T *sob sob* haizz... Oh well, so what if he's REALLY a gay?!! I am still gonna support his music career! Gambateh Hins!! Anyway, once I haven't find out the truth, I will not take this statement into account! U will gotta proof it to me with loads of facts! T=T

Refreshed ^^

2010-03-07T16:11:00.003+08:00

Came back from Sunday service...Keith preached today about "Real Faith", a topic that I really needed for now, feels like God Himself revealed and spoke to me. It's really refreshing to hear the preaching of the Word, it gives me strength and hope again to live up my life in this week before the next sermon, hehe. At first, there are two sides of my mind arguing the whole morning whether or not I should make my way to church even when there is nobody else to accompany me throughout the service ( Schuey is with my Dad at Selayang Hosp, Che Che is with Mommy to meet a client, Kawan needs to send his Mom to KL Central), Oh well, I choose to bounce out from bed and get ready for service! Phew, proven once again, I made the right choice! =) After all, I am never alone in City Harvest, though I may not personally know the person on my left and right, but why worry? They are my brothers and sisters anyway, I end up knowing some new friends! ^^ I sat with a brother on my left, Matthew and a sister on my right, Sherlyn. Amen!

Thank God for a wonderful Dad, he made sure my piano is well fixed and tuned... I regain my happiness in music! Woohoo! Can't wait for tomorrow's piano class, what is Ms. Chow gonna teach me tomorrow huh?! As long as I have breath, I will always wanna lay my fingers on those black and white keys, believing that one day I can play those lovely pieces of Mozart, Chopin, Schumann, Bach...... and my own original pieces! I know it is still far to be mentioned, but I will work on it! And when I am on top of the "mountain", I will rely my heart, no longer my fingers...

I would say that CF is honoured to have David to share on BGR topic with us, just that I wish more young lives can be there to have an ear. It will certainly bless us all with a better view of relationship between a guy and a girl. Yup, fellowship - friendship - courtship - marriage and so on. The basic of a romantic relationship is friendship, this will lead to a more successful marriage. The romance might poof out one day, but friendship will still last, that's why a couple can still cling on to one another, because besides being a couple, they are still best buddies! ^__^ He's right! A good example will be he himself and his wife, Shirley. =) Haha, from now on, I am washing my brain, no more "double O", no more QT guys on mind, making friends with everyone and anyone of both sex, with the most sincere heart. I know, God will provide the right guy at the right time. Amen!

I am changing my perspective lenses, exam is important, but it is not my everything, shall not ever put it above serving my Lord. No doubt I have to do well in my studies, that doesn't mean I shall neglect all my other responsibilities as a child of God. Hehe, so glad that I finally get to send Crystal my report, I am finally ggggrrrrrroooooowwwwwwiiiiiiinnnnnG! Yippee!!! ^____^

Updated NEWS!

2010-02-08T16:08:00.003+08:00

The previous weekend has been so wonderful 'cos the whole family get to gather for dinner, Saturday for Aunty Feeleng and Uncle Yap's farewell dinner before they leave for Australia, and on Sunday night, Uncle Peter's house warming party. =) Whenever the family gathers, I just can't stop thanking God for each and everyone of them. Dad, Mom, Yeva Che Che, and li'l bro Schumann. Love you all, wonderful people in my life! =P

Getting back to the issue of S.O.S, I really never thought of it, that another 'brother', that I usually have too much clashes of opinions with him, and can never ever come to an agreement of whatever issue regarding our belief, was the one who comforted me when I felt troubled and lack of confidence. It was God telling me that, all things are possible. Haha... But I really wanna thank him for being there when I have no one to talk to, though at first I got angry of him too, for agitating me..zzz....Oh well... Thanks, Brother Kenneth. =) Now, problem is solved. And I've learnt my lesson...to be slow in anger.

After a few times of small test given by Ms. B (biz lecturer), only to know that I am r-eee-aaa-ll-y slacking a lot in my studies. =.= Gotta spend more time in revisions. Sorry people, especially my dear CG members, and also W.Hong, for "flying kites" whenever u guys ask me out for movies. Sooowweeee.... But actually deep in my heart, I'm afraid of my progression... I'm afraid to bring disappointment to those who have entrusted me.

The first piano class I was so anxious and don't know what to expect, but the second class (today) was much better, I was so eager to it, purposely took my bath before the class, so that I'm FRESH enough to absorb the knowledge of music Ms. Chow's gonna pour on me! Hehe... I know, I am a step closer to my dream --- to become a musician. Oh YES!

Haha...Kawan once messaged me after seeing my self-took photos, asking, when did I become so "zi lian/ syok sendiri". I knew people will ask, but I thought the 1st one will be my brother, Schuey, haha... 'Cos he knew how much I'll "comment" other people....Oopss... hehe.. Oh well, people change, so do I. ^__^ I change b'cos of Him, b'cos He mentioned,"Love your neighbor like you love yourself". It has always been a hard command to obey, b'cos...I don't even love myself, how can I love my neighbor?! But He changed me, a lot indeed... And the most important is that, He had 1st loved me, how can I not love myself, when the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords chose to love me? Chose to sacrifice His life for mine? So honestly, I am being more "zi ai", not "zi lian". So don't be surprised, there are more pics to come! HAHA~~

Sigh (as a relief), still enjoying every single day as a teen. Thanking Him for my family, my friends, my opportunity to study, to soar my dreams and lots more!

Okie, that's all for the latest updates! Gotta sleep soon... Signing off by wishing my blog readers a very HAPPY CNY!! Tata~~

Recently...

2010-01-06T19:16:00.005+08:00

Hahaha...finally got to steal some time from my hectic schedule to blog a li'l bit and then burying myself again later, with a list of 'things to do' before I head to Guangzhou tomorrow night. Gosh, it's really not the right time to leave college right now, even for few days as lecturers are rushing the syllabus, so that we can get ready for our AS exams at June this year, plus...Orientation period is on... gotta plan for CF activities. Oh well, still believing that God knows what's best to happen. So, cheer up gal! =)

Have been hearing much about people around me talking of new year's resolutions. I've been asked of mine too. =P Hmm... I wanna take the year 2010 more seriously, wanna shine for His glory...through my studies. Adding on, leading CF. Being a leader of CF, which at the same time, a servant.. to serve my dear Lord & His children, God never promise that it is gonna be an easy task, but as He leads me into it, He will also lead me through it. It will definitely be a good way for me to grow...spiritually stronger! I know people is observing through my life, and my ways of doing things. To equip myself to take up this responsibility, it motivates me to read the Bible daily, at least half an hour spent meditating on His words. Bravo! =)

Just a little bit looking into the future, I will be attending night classes for my Law degree, so that I can work and learn how to operate the law firm simultaneously. "Gosh, it is gonna be hard and tiring!" shouted my classmates when I broke the news. Obviously, not my choice! But since I can't go against their will, I'll choose to flow with it. Afterall, it is all about my attitude and perspective towards the situation. And I've made my stand, to be positive (B+)!!

Of course, I am definitely not trying to be a hero, putting everything on my shoulders, but constantly believing that in God's name, everything is possible. Ps. Kevin also shared, we do not ask for less duties or responsibilities than previous years, but we should confidently ask for more! This is how we grow...

Hmm...thought my passion has faded... till I got some inspiration while singing in my bathroom a.k.a my personal music studio (as usual) =P Should work on this new piece soon!! Woohoo~~

Signing off now, getting back to my study desk as where I left my heart...

Till we meet again, folks!

Operation Accomplished! Well Done!

2009-12-25T02:08:00.008+08:00

The drama production is AWESOME! =D After I've took off my contact lenses, changed into my house T and short pants, brushed my teeth, and all the other wash-ups, I did not straight away jump into my bed & head to dreamland, instead, I went to the computer and start blogging about the production I enjoyed so much just not long ago. I'm afraid if I waited till tomorrow, I'll forget the 1st excitement I have right at this moment (bah, short-term memory)!! =_= "Operation: Save The World", I can say million times that it is great, but still it is better that you can watch it with your very own eyes! I'm glad that my sister and her friend from SG enjoyed it. *grins* Anyway, anyone who missed the production and would love to watch it, do feel free to borrow the DVD from me, as I will be ordering from the attributes soon!

The message slotted in by Ps. Kevin was PEACE. Peace, which means shalom in Hebrew, brings about 3 things, health, prosperity and happiness. What's left on my mind is... Ps. Kevin mentioned, to have all these not only outwardly, but also on the inside of us. If we do not have peace on the inside of us, do not even think about world peace. As MJ sang it, "Man in the Mirror", change yourself before changing the world.

When there were people responding to the altar call, I'm touched and euphoric. If I'm already feeling like that when one soul is saved, what more will angels in heaven react? What more will God feel? Man, angels in heaven rejoice!!! I will always believe that one fine day, those I care and loved, those I bring to church will take up the faith and give their life to Jesus, that time there will be no suitable words to describe my feelings, only God knows my feelings! =D

I couldn't ask for more, to have my dear brother in Christ, Xerois JC to join me for Christmas Eve night. Thanks bro! Oh, and thank you sooo much for your Christmas present, I would say...it is the very 1st gift I've ever received that is suitable and appropriate for me. ^^ A CD, a praise and worship CD. How nice of you! Immediately I popped it into the CD player once I unwrapped it, keep listening until I came across one song, "Thank You Lord". Yep, we can never stop thanking You for all that You've done in our lives! Thank You for loving us, Thank You for dying on the cross, Thank You for being with us through good and hard times...Thank You for more! Deo Gratias!!!

Lastly, Merry Christmas folks! =) I will wake up in the morning and continue to thank God for all that He has done for me, including a Christmas lunch appointment with my dearest family members (Dad, Mom, Che and Schumann) at Uncle V. Daniel's place tomorrow. Oh, how I enjoy wandering around his house with all the antique swords hanging all across his walls, ah and a big, tall Christmas tree! *grins again* Adding on, a Christmas wish sms from dear Ice Princess, Charmaine all the way from Russia simply do bring me sweetness in my sleep! Thanks sis! Love and miss you much! I hope you received my sms too, ekekeke...

Sleepover!

2009-10-17T12:19:00.003+08:00

Hate the feeling of being all alone at home, though it's a great time to study and spend time doing my own things, can't help it but to feel supeeer lonely. =( The gals [V.Yuen, T.San, H.Ching, F.Ching] had gone back few hours ago, to their respected places, started to miss them already after a day and a night spent together. So glad after graduation, we still get to see each other and hangout together! Woohoo!!

Yesterday after my second Law paper, I dropped some of my college mates at Tmn Bahagia LRT station, while on the way home, I was really terrified by Sporty's (my white Sportage Kia) performance, out of sudden while I wanna make a turning, its steering wheel got harden that I can hardly turn it at all, just to notice that it was caused by my carelessness.... Haizz... Accidentally banged the pavement around KDU while reaching to the highway, which caused the alignment to go wrong and somekind of black oil was leaking!! That was what my lil brother told me when I reached home. It was complicated! Difficult for me to understand what he was trying to explain to me....zzz...Have to let the mechanic take away Sporty.. sob sob. I was supposed to fetch the gals from H.Ching's house to my place, yet this happened..gosh..Luckily, when there's a will, there's a way, hehe...got my Daddy to drop me at her place and she drove us all as I led her to my place. Heehee.. Luckily, we gals got to meet up at last and we went to Sunway Pyramid.

Gosh, there are so many to see but nothing to buy... =( What to do, we are lack of M-O-N-E-Y!!!

T.San : How I wish to go back with hands full of shopping bags! >.<

Jennifer : Not enough also, next time ask ya boy friend, ur brother, ur cousin brother, all the strong guys to carry more shopping bags!! =P (We gals just choose what we WANT!! WUAHAHA~~)

T.San : Hey, next time when we get our salary, we call each other out and shop until MAD!!

Jennifer : Hah?! Then for the whole month no need to eat lor??? Best time to fast! HEHE...

T.San : Ya, then when people see us wear nice nice clothes, but we look soo skinny.....

Jennifer : Like "hangers" wearing clothes... =.="

T.San : Haha, ya...so funny!! =P

All : Money money money~~~ It's so funny~~~ In a rich man's world~~~

I never felt so relief like yesterday while hanging out with friends! Sometimes words cannot express my feelings much, but what I've experienced yesterday, will be in my heart. After the gals gone to bed, I went to Maple World to meet Ice Princess there, although it was just for a while, but I treasure it a lot, it's like travelling through time machine, going back to the past where we always train and explore together! Miss those good ole' days too much!! Oh ya, a special thanks to dear pHloe and Max for giving me mesos, weapons and clothes! Although kena hacked already, I got better stuff before I got hacked..hehe! TQ people! Muakzz.

PS: A message to Abba Father,

THank You for granting me friends, nice friends, good friends, best friends, true friends, loyal friends...all of them!! I'll treasure them like diamonds, making my life so glamorous! =)

HK $H0PP!nG TR!P

2009-09-23T23:15:00.007+08:00

6 days 5 nights wandering about in Hong Kong and Macau, spending most of the time and money on shopping, truly glad to be back home in my own "dog kennel" -- my bedroom!! ^___^ My dream of becoming the Queen of Boots is realising as I got sooo many pairs of boots from Luo Hu Plaza. Everytime I gained a beautiful piece of victory item, the song "These Boots Are Made For Walking" originally sang by Nancy Sinatra will be played on my mind. =P How I wish I have a LARGE closet to nicely place all of them so that I can admire them whenever I enter my room. Well, this will only become a reality if my room were to get any bigger...definitely for the time being, there is no space left for such big furniture!

Certainly I will not like the idea of staying in Hong Kong for good, working and living there will mean HELL to me...everything over there is in "fast-forwarded" pace! A particular scene took place in the subway station, people (mainly from the working class) marching their ways to their respected places like terra-cotta, the flow of people passing by was endless! A slow coach like me will definitely find it difficult to stay on track, but if I really root myself in HK, it will be a great opportunity for me to learn to do things faster and more alert. Better ado, no thanks XP...I'm happy to be back in Malaysia!

An experience of flying with MAS Airlines slightly changed my mindset towards my country. They have good meals, serving a pack of 3 Ferrero Rocher to every guests... Individual screens made me enjoyed my flight by filling up my time with movies. =D Advertisements to lure more foreigners to travel in Malaysia, I will say it is of good quality advertisement, it will somehow give people a pleasant 1st impression. =) However, I heard from my family members, MAS is actually making a loss for providing too good services. Gosh.. Anyway, I like the idea of joint venture between MAS and Cathay Pasific, at least by doing this, at the same time reducing cost, they are also reducing the the waste of resources (e.g. fuel). Bet other avian companies are also doing the same thing. =)

While doing some light marketing at the Wellcome Supermarket (branches all around HK), Che Che and Mom went across the use of plastic bags, how they charged consumers for an extra plastic bag. Finally people are aware of this issue! I personally salute Ikea for practising this good ethic, plus their plastic bags are bio-degradable! Haha, bonus for Ikea, they has set up a good image ---- being environmental friendly. Kudos! ^__^

Last night, went to Tai Hu Restaurant (located at Hollywood Plaza, Nathan Road) for dinner, took away the fried rice which we couldn't finished up, as I walked along somewhere near Lady Street, I prayed to Father in Heaven, "Show me O Lord, whoever's stomach will be filled by this pack of rice." Found an old man, picking up on rubbish to eat. That scene troubles me alot.... As he grabbed the rice from my hand, his another hand busily pouring some soup-based leftovers from the rubbish bin into his mouth.... People from the pathways were looking at us strangely... I wish I could do more for him, I wish to provide shelter... I wish to be armored with more ability and capability..... Open my eyes wide enough, to see those around me who needs help, physically and emotionally... Father, let me be more daring enough to reachout, Amen. -_-

A W0nDeRFuL TriP BacK T0 HoMetowN

2009-08-07T16:29:00.017+08:00

One week of term break, I went back to my dad's hometown, Ipoh for 3 days & 2 nights with my dear classmate, P. Yi and her mom, Aunty L, accompanied by her godfather, Uncle D. Wow, they are so warm hearted & treated me like part of the family. =) On the way to Ipoh, I was looking out from the car window, sightseeing. Wasn't really paying much attention to the scenery though, 'cos I was busy thinking back most of the trips travelling back to Ipoh with my beloved family, ( Dad will be driving, Mom will be sitting beside Dad, reading, perhaps... Schumann will be behind Mom while I'll be sitting behind Dad.) Till I saw something which caughthold of my sight..... Yes...It is "it".

That particular mountain I used to make fun of...but somehow it doesn't sound the same anymore b'cos part of it is gone, forever. However, now & then, whenever I come back to Ipoh, travelling along the highway, passing by that mountain, I'll always remember her...my beloved Ma Ma (grandma). Although I'm uncertain if that mountain DOES have its own name, or whoever cares if the mountain even have a name or not, to me, it will always be my "Ma Ma Shan" (Grandma Mountain). This is how it remembers me of her. =) I can visualise her sitting on her wheelchair, talking non-stop like a chatterbox whenever we visit her at the care home....

We met up with Mr. WH once we left our luggage in our hotel room. 3 of us went to "Nam Tin Dong"& had tea time in a restaurant called "Scotch" I think... Couldn't really recall the name..hehe.. While enjoying our western meals, we chit-chatted & joked. Most of the time, I was being the target of the "joke". We had fun & laughters on our table anyway, truly loved the presence of friends. Amen. ^____^ At night after dinner at Yum Yum Restaurant, I had yumcha session with my cousin brother Dom and one of my childhood friend. Didn't really talked much, but I treasured the moment we shared...It was short, yet worthy.

2nd day, P. Yi & I went to the hotel's swimming pool twice ( once in the morning & once in the evening). Ehehe.. All the silly movements we can think of, we did it in the pool... dancing, jumping, hopping, running...u name it! =.=" Lucky enough that no one witnessed all these absurd actions!!! Special thanks to Aunty L for caring so much for my safety & ensuring all my needs are met. Thank you so much!!

We also went to Kellie's Castle, located in at Batu Gajah, considered near to Ipoh. If I were to given a chance to pay the "artpiece" another visit, I will do so though it's not that much to see, I just happen to like that place. Sometimes I wonder I will be totally amazed if I get to see it well furnished with all the fabulous furnitures and glamouring chandeliers. Surely it will be awesome!! They even have their own private bar!!! However, I kind of got some goosebumps when I walked into that bar-to-be room, it's quite scary actually, to have it dark, empty and at a little corner...zzzzz.... Oh my gosh, they have their own wine cellar!!! I don't dare to go all the way down as it was super dark but I wish I was given the 2nd chance to walk down the steps with a companion...I heard there's a secret tunnel (which is now NO LONGER SECRET =.=") which leads to the indian temple somewhere near to the castle. Bedrooms are huge...yes HUGE!! Larger than my living room! =P Especially the master bedroom with few doors, 4...or izzit 5? Or even more??? Can't remember... =.= It is certainly amazing! Kellie Castle, till we meet again!!

D Day before travelling back to KL, P. Yi & I went to Jusco mall, took 2 hours (or less) to finish browsing through the whole shopping centre. Luckily it can still be considered "fruitful"...at LEAST I bought myself a gingerbread man soft toy! Haha~~~ Thinking that I was in cloud nine till I reached home, showed Mom my new "friend", got scolded... =( "Why did U waste such money on these things???" Yup, I understand, my bad.... I shouldn't...Sorry Mom! Will never ever dare to bring in "newcomers" into my bedroom anymore... *sob sob* Still, as a conclusion (or more like a confession), from the core of my heart, I'm still glad to spend every night with Ginger and have sweet dreams till the Sun greets me morning! =P Lol....

*** For picture viewing session, kindly proceed to Facebook. There's more to see =) ***

Pra!sing Him in Good & BaD TimeS..

2009-06-20T10:00:00.012+08:00

It has been a wonderful day sorrounded by friends/classmates. =) It was "Treasure Hunt" event held by the Pre - U department of my college, KDU (duh =.=") The game part wasn't too much of excitement or challenges, but I had fun because of my dear friends. ^__^ I just like their presence... Come to think of some "particular" incident...it's rather silly yet funny.... I was really shocked when she ran up to that * cough cough * ......cute...* cough cugh* ...guy... (Jan intake should be =.=) and pointed me out, "She wants ur number!" GOSH, at the very moment, I wish I can be invisible, YES!! INVISIBLE!! Well, I don't blame her for that, but I've learnt my lesson as not to DARE someone to do something abnormal, ESPECIALLY college friends! =_="

Later that night, E35 as usual, had our cell group meeting at Sister Grace's place, glad Brother Kent fetched me to and fro. While on the journey, just the both of us in the car, he taught me something which is so relevant to my future, yes he mentioned it, "What I'm telling u now, u cannot buy one worr, it's priceless." Well, he's telling me that it's because he is a teacher now, so people pay him for teaching. =P Lucky me, he taught me & I don't have to pay...Joking lar! =P Yup, what he said stroke my mind, he asked, "What if now God let u achieve ur dream in Performing Arts, will u still get to continue Law after that?" Obviously, the answer is considered "NO"...it is much harder and I'll be just out-of-track! Another question was thrown to me again, "What do u think, after Law, God wants u to continue achieving ur dream, is it possible?" Woohoo, I sensed the bulb on my head lighting up! ^________________^ So...pretty sure what I should be focusing now. Thank God for this message.

Glad to be with my family of E35, being with them, I don't have to fake things up, for I know they are reliable. Sister Grace shared in her sermon, sometimes we will encounter this kind of situation, in order to get into the crowd, being within the crowd, where all the "happening people" are in that crowd, while they are gossiping, should I stay aside for the Holy Spirit said it is not right or...having this thought "I wanna be in that crowd" and join others...g-o-s-s-i-p-i-n-g!!! =.=" I was totally in dilemma last week while facing this situation at my intensive drama class. I was upset most of the time in class while facing my classmates there, 'cos I really dunno what to do or say to them, I just feel that I can hardly flow with their topics. However, now I am done with all these, I should get back on the right track to focus on my studies! Gambateh neh!!!

His blood cleanses our sins...

2009-05-18T15:48:00.008+08:00

Back in 3 months ago (21st of Feb), I remembered the 1st time in my life donating blood in National Service. Back then, I was so afraid yet I really wanted to donate my blood because I know I can save lifes. =) Also with one more motive, which is to find out what blood group am I from. Haha, found it! It's O (Hooray! I'm a universal donor) >.^

The scene flashbacked to that moment before the needle pricked into my fourth finger on the right hand, my dear friend/sister, Momo prayed for me...for courage and faith =) And so, I was preparing to scream (perhaps) when the blood starts oozing out from my finger.....few seconds passed...NAH, a single "ouch??" is the only word came out from my mouth. Yup, "ouch with question marks"...Haha...even the nurse was amused by my awkard reaction! =P

Lying on the bed with a stream of blood flowing out from my body, I began to think about our Lord, Jesus Christ...compared to Him, mine was just mere kacang putih! He died on the cross with blood covering His whole body, His blood is significant as it washes away our sins. His blood truly saves lifes! I am a child of God, I hope from deep inside my heart, that I too, can help to save lifes! Yes, I am afraid to see blood, or even encountering with blood, but I know I must not be selfish....So, in the future, I will still continue to donate blood.

Haiz, I didn't get to donate my blood yesterday during blood donation drive at church because I've donated not long ago...So, whenever I am qualified, I will not hesitate! =D Hopefully this particular post will also encourage people who are qualified to donate blood to be generous. Hehe...

Back from reorganising of Ryu's lifestyle...

2009-05-15T09:35:00.001+08:00

Before I lay my hands on the keyboard, trains of thoughts were flowing....but at the very moment when I wanted to start typing, however...my mind is totally blank! ZZZzzzz... Oh well, guess I'll just simply "blabber" something for the sake of "reviving" my blogpage...haha!!

Hmm, so I've started my Pre-Law Programme 1 and a half month ago, life should be ok for me in college.. Thank God for a circle of friendship around me, college life will be nothing without my fellow dear classmates, afterall... we'll be seeing each other almost for 5 days a week!!!

This week, I consider it as quite a significant week because...it might be a turning point in my life if whatever happens in this week will actually draw me any inch closer to achieve my dream of becoming a singer. Once again, proved that God is always loyal & faithful, not to forget..a LOvIng Father, He had been with me all the time when I thought that I am nothing but a loser, a failer, a daydreamer... Furthermore, He brought hope back into my life by letting me pass my singing audition! >.^ Now, I've signed up for the "intensive vocal training class", what I heard is there are more than just singing... Sometimes I doubt if I can cater with all these without distracting my studies...Well, I AM STRONG WHEN I"M WITH FATHER LORD! (I truly believe so...)

Yesterday (14/5), I went to Sunway Pyramid with my dear, Evania, haha...when I think back what we've actualy went through, sometimes it really got into my nerves as I can't stand it when both of us were not decisive enough in making choices, of course at the same time, I have to keep an eye on my wallet as not to overspend! (ps: I'm still saving my this year angpow money u know! >.<) Anyway, I still love the time we've been together & will treasure it a lot because...we might not see each other too often. She's gonna start college life soon while I'm kind of staying on track with my hectic lifestyle...

Ah, guess that's all for today....hmm.... seems like this post turns up quite smoothly. =D Also, Thank God for once again, bringing peace back into my family...and I hope after an argument (of stupidity), both Dad & Mom will learn to love & respect each other more! Tata~~

- A FR!3nD -

2009-01-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

I really dunno what to say, but I've lost a friend.....

I wonder why... A good guy like him has to go, leaving the world behind, leaving his beloved family and friends, to a place no one knows....

But deep in my heart, I know there is a plan, though I might not know what exactly IS the plan, for God knows....Maybe ending of his life means ending of his suffer??? God knows.....

It's a season of joy and happiness. However, I can't be enjoying all the fun of collecting angpows when my dear friend Y. Sook is actually lying in his coffin right now, this very moment. Using image of a smile on my face, so that those around me will not notice the sadness and pain I'm encountering, or not they too, will not enjoy this CNY celebration.

Now and forever, 2008 5S6 will never be complete without him...

Now and forever, dance stage is less interesting without a talented dancer like him...

Now and forever, my heart will ache whenever I thought of how I've lost a great friend like him...

Brother, may U see God's great love & accept him as your Father in Heaven so that U can be at his side right now... Rest In Peace, my dear...U'll always be on my mind....................

Kudos!

2008-12-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

Out of sudden, I started to like Ah Xin's voice and his songs, which are mostly composed by himself. The lead singer of band group Mayday (known as Wu Yue Tian) really brings node inside my blood vessels by just listening to his songs...waliao....

Strongly comment :

走火入魔(duet with Ding Dang...try watching the MV), 你不是真正的快乐(awesome), 倔强(despite one phrase I dun really agree, it is considered a nice song). There are also other songs sang by Mayday worth listening, but these are the few which caught hold of my attention. So give it a try! =D

LOOK AT THE WAY HE SING....GOSH.....=.="

Dear Darling~~~

2008-12-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Forgive me for not being a caring and responsible dog trainer....after few lessons of dog obedience classes, you are still going wild and uncontrollable, it isn't your fault.. I've not been training with you lately...At this moment I can't promise you anything, but I am still working on it... Sorry dear, I'm still looking for myself, I don't know where I have lost myself.....I'm leading a life without a vision...God help! I'll be back, my dear Shanya....I will....

My opinion to Shanya darling : Similar to a wild stallion, she even has the body shape of one and smells like one too! Nasty li'l creature, biting anything (or even worse still, EVERYTHING) that is reachable for her; Not easily to be tamed... Despite all the troubles she'd brought to our family, she is still considered cute and adorable...(at least when you pat her head, she will quietly sit down, sticking out her tongue, licking u back in return) Maybe that's the only time u get to see her calm down. She whacks her tail real hard everytime I approach to her. =)

Please be a good gal ya?! While I learn how to be a good owner and your trainer... Let's work it out together...As I'll be leaving house soon for 3 months, I'll try to ask Schuey to take you out for walks (he might prefer to bring Vicky out i guess) Well, I'll try asking...So you really need to behave yourself, learn from Vicky!

Princesses From The World of Fanta-C

2008-11-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

TQ

2008-11-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

It is so thoughtful of u to spend ur recess to take a few snap of photos with me, since I won't be there the next day for Graduation Day. If anyone will ever ask me, what is the best gift I've ever received, I will proudly say, " Friendship." Thank you, my dear Ice Princess...

I know I've troubled my classmate for not paying up my debts for class T-shirt and class magazine, you knew I had had enough of problems holding me breathless, you helped me paid RM45. It might not be much if seen by others, but it means the world to me, for you always make sure I am fine. (Sometimes I feel that I am an .....sorry to say......but an idiot....for not treating you good enough, giving you all sorts of annoyed faces just because I am having a bad day) Thank you so much, Spring Flower aka Chun Fa (you know who you are)......

To all the friends who really sayang me, it's rather silly to say, but this is what I really mean deep in my soul....."THANK YOU, THANKS A MILLION FOR BEING MY FRIENDS!!!!!"

AMEN.

What is left behind?

2008-11-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

It is already four days after the funeral, everything is back to normal, but deep in my heart, I know....it will never be the same again...........

In one day's time, her room has been drastically changed into somewhat a "MJ room". I don't really blame the one who made the change, as she'd been waiting for this moment long before we even shift in to this house, but don't u think is TOO fast? I thought we all assumed MaMa (granny) will be "coming back to visit us" in 1 week's time? (They called it 'The Return of the Soul') How will she feel when she come back, her room will be like...SO DIFFERENT??? =.="

I always feel that I haven't done enough for MaMa, she is always downstairs (and i am upstairs, in my room) all I have to do is just spend more time with her, although she can't hear, nor talk, but at least she can feel my companion, I am always so selfish, keeping most of the time for myself. So what if I want to see her, spend time with her, I no longer have the chance to do so, or I should say...FOREVER! SHE IS GONE FOREVER! U'LL NEVER SEE HER F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Come to think of it when I am writing this post, I really miss her, alot! I really want to cry it out... I really want to know where will she be right now? Will she be okay? Is she fine? Tears are blurring my eyesight, but I am more afraid that time will make her image on my mind to be blurrer. Every second I am trying very very hard to catch hold of her looks...At the same time, I am worried because she haven't accept Christ, plus her funeral is Buddhist-based, I also felt afraid because my parents are not Christians too. Mom is such an {anti-religious}, or more known as {anti-Christian}, of course I will not give up easily. I WILL CONTINUE TO ASK GOD TO GUIDE ME, SOFTEN THEIR HEARTS, SO THAT THEY CAN ACCEPT HIM INTO THEIR SOULS...................

Despite all these that are happening, I see sparks of hope! Although it sounds kinda ridiculous when Dad said the whole family should attend Sunday School, just because he likes the hymms sang by the Sunday Schoolers, it reminds him of his olden days as a boy at school, singing all the Christian songs during assembly every morning ( that time was because British ruled Malaya). Schumann think it is rather silly, but instantly I know this is a splendid idea to draw my family members closer to Father Lord!

Oh well, fortunately Schumann agreed that during the funeral, at least we got to communicate a bit with our cousins who usually NEVER talk to us, nor recognise our names.

I understand I shall let bygones be bygones, everything should be on track...but I am reluctant......................................................................

Bye...

2008-10-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

She'd left.......on the 28th of October 2008 (Tuesday), 10.05pm at Universiti Hospital....

Ward 1255, her body was still on the bed when I return for home, all wrapped up... I stunted for a sec while watching at this unbearable scene.....

When I heard the news, I cried ( as if a relief) but not over upset, as He'd promised, I have to learn to accept the fact, I shall not let others worry too much about me, we have to work on her ceremony.....

I can't make it to my Graduation Day.....

Don't wanna talk about it anymore.....Bye.......................

Grandma, Rest in peace.......... Love you.............

Shopping "Must See" Items --- From Head to Toe

2008-10-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

Just went shopping with my mom at Sunway Pyramid. I notice I always walk to some stuff automatically, as if there's magnetic force attracting me closer to them......

Below is an analysis I made based on accessories I usually look for (but seldom buy it, 'cos Mom say "Buy it when you earn your own salary >.<).

Head : VERY seldom because I have short hair, don't really use hair clips unless when I am at my study desk, writing.

Eye : Love looking at sun specs, especially those with light colour lens (big ones). Looking cool~~

Ear : I like to glance through earrings but won't be buying them because I can't stand them tangling on my ears, makes my neck feel VERY ITCHY!

Lips : It's a nono, or else I will be "eating" the lipstick / lip gloss. (YUCK =.=")

Face : Erm..makeup??!! Not now... zzz.....

Neck : Simple and unique. Most important not too heavy, I don't want to drag my neck as though I am a bull!!

Wrist : BANGLES!!!!!!!!! Great crave for them...Metallic, unique, simple and totally nice. Especially those that look simply classic. Favourite colours will be black, silver, copper or brown.

Hand : Too bad people seldom sell hand gloves. Those for motorcyclist, mostly Taiwanese will wear, those black in colour.

Finger : Very YENG ones. But if it is from my boy friend / husband, I will prefer those sweet ones, suitable for gals, and make sure he really thinks it suits me...onot ....HNGH! I won't wear >.<...jkjk...hehe

Top : BLACK! SURELY BLACK! It makes me confident. Oh yea~~~ ^^ owh, it also must not be tight, or else I will feel suffocated.

Bottom : Usually 3 quarter pants (hip hop style) or long pants with many pockets. No jeans for me (usually jeans are quite tight).

Waist : Well, also metallic ones. But till now, I haven't try on any belt...hehehe.....

Feet: For the time being, I will not be wearing any high heels, unless it is an obligatory. Simple, cool and comfortable sandals will be my choice. If it comes to shoes, the first which caught my eyesight.

WANNA BE...

2008-09-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

I WANNA BE............

...A STRONG KID OF GOD

in faith.

...A FILIAL CHILD OF MY DEAR PARENTS

by being the "heir" to the "throne".

...A CUTE LIL SISTER TO EVA CHE

and I always will be =P .

...A ROLE MODEL TO SCHUEY

guiding him all the paths of his life.

...A BEST FRIEND TO MY PALS

as a friend in need is a friend indeed.

...A FIRE GAL TO ICE PRINCESS

ice and fire, makes a couple, hehe...jkjk =P

...A LOVER OF SHANYA & VICKY

wish to spend more precious moments with them.

...A SINGER

singing out my heart content.

...A DANCER

to show the world what I've got. (well, it's a matter of time...wait larr)

...AN ENTERTAINER (performer / actress)

to bring joy and laughter, to present the another-side-of-Ryu on stage.

...A TRAVELER

to reach every corner of the world, trying out any type and every type of glorious gourmet!

...A CHEF

to cook food not with hands, but with heart.

...A SOCIAL WORKER

bringing hope back into their lives.

...A MILLIONAIRE

so that some statements above can become reality.

Oh GOSH...DREAM vanished into thin air...sob sob..T.T

2008-09-23T08:20:00.000+08:00

Hey gal, u've brought bad news this morning... The weather was quite fine just now, but after hearing what u've said, thunder storms came raging my mind and soul... Honestly speaking, I felt kinda emo later because I really thought we can soon soar our dreamz together after SPM, (I've been waiting soooo long =.= )

Hip Hop, singing, composing, playing musical instruments, everything, even lepaking, shopping, karaoke-ing...all that u can think of... BUT, you are going to further your studies at Russia! ................ T.T ..................................

Oh well, I am going to Australia too (or somewhere else) Ok, can we make a deal? Few more years to achieve our own goals, finish up our professional courses --- your doctor degree & my law studies, ONLY THEN we sama sama achieve our dream, k??
By that time, ( if there's no miscalculation) we should be around 24 years old when we finished all our studies. Hope nothing will change our mind... Please gal, promise me that we will always keep in touch even we are far by thousand miles. PS : Remember the webcam thingy? We gotta buy better qualities of webcams ya... =)
Dear, thanks for being there for me all the time... I wonder sometimes how can you do so much thing : playing tennis, ice-skating, playing the piano, voilin somemore! So many more, I can't remember whatever is it anyway...
Okie, that's all for today's blogging. Tata for now~~~~

We've made it till this far because you've encouraged me! Aligato Ajuma! T.T (tears of joy)

对好友的祝福

2008-08-31T00:17:00.000+08:00

听说你的抵抗力又弱了。。。几乎是到了零八仙。。

那天，我真的感到很欣慰...向父神阿爸祷告后才去医院探望你，果然我所祈祷的被聆听了！你看起来还蛮好精神, 笑容依然像阳光般灿烂。唉，可能把我折的纸鹤放在你病房里不那么好，因为无意中连细菌也带进去啦！但我还是希望那纸鹤能给你继续与病魔搏斗的推动力，毕竟我已祈祷，好让耶稣把所有的祝福都往纸鹤塞，并在它翅膀上写着“早日康复”四个大字。

不知道你现在状况如何了？！我想再去看你，但是目前为止应该是不行吧，我保证，你好些，我又会来探望你。多希望你不要去太远的医院，若不是的话，要看你可就麻烦了。。。你一定要有很强的生命力，全班的同学都在为你打气！你知道吗？我们为你折纸鹤，折玫瑰，写纸条，还为你录上5S6的独特MV，为你大张嗓子----唱歌呢！

咱们的育硕，加油吧，你一定行的！！！

R3v1vAL

2008-07-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

After such a long time dead blogging, came back to my page, dunno actually what to type or share, as my feelings and thoughts are going through ups and downs.....
Today (11/7) CF had a revival event called the "Campus Awakening", our invited speaker was Mr Caleb Chung...at first, his sermon is kinda funny that made me laugh so much till he suddenly started to mention about Pastor Philip Mantofa's "A Trip To Hell".................
Most of us Christians has been "submarine" Christians....simply meaning that we assumed we are but not leading a life like one, not reaching out to others, bringing more men to God. We are always surrounded by non-believers of Christ and also free thinkers, not to say very far away...just in my own class, my closest friends, they are always there right in front of my eyes, but i have not even bother to reach out to them.......... "What if one day they leave the world and go to hell, crying in pain asking why didn't my friend ever reach out to me?" A question thrown to me by the speaker... For the very first time of my life, I cried after listening to a sermon... Teardrops juz couldn't stop rolling down my cheeks. ( IT WAS TOTALLY PAISEH I TELL U >.<)
There are so many things i wanna shout it out but i juz couldn't find suitable words for them, perhaps not all feelings are describable! From now on, i'll try my best to reach out to the 3 names i've promised God. At first i felt uncertain & obviously no guts to even speak word of gospel to them, but the very next second the speaker prayed for us to have faith in Father Lord that we can DO IT! AMEN~~~~~~~~
Later that day, after the revival event i head back to CF room for interviewing session for the next batch of committee. Juz before i enter CF room , my cute li'l junior , Aaron came to comfort me 'cos he knew i cried during the event. He wanted to hug me ==" but i juz kept a distance and patted his back and he patted mine. Few secs later, i saw someone passed by heading home. OH MY GOSH!!! @@ He's sure to be mistaken!!! What if he thinks i am so "open-minded" can hug a guy in public!!! i really wanna apologize , i really didn't mean to let him witness that situation. i didn't even know he was there! More soever, it 's only my junior larr plus we are not even hugging each other! Again i'm in dilemma, not that i super admire this guy or have a crush on him or what so ever...it's juz my image that matters! i dowan misunderstandings.... (how i wish he'll know but the probability for him to know is almost ZERO) Oh well......i guess he won't even bother, so what??!! cheh.....
Last night i prayed so that Father Lord will refill me , melt my numb heart, once again to let the Holy Spirit to touch my soul, His presence to fill Dewan Kuliah.... Once again proven it was an answered prayer! * Deo Gratias*
Oh Lord, thank U for the passing of my driving test, Amen Lord! I'll keep my promise----to fetch more people to Ur church, serving U & Ur children. Whenever i am backsliding, i pray that Lord, U will once again send hint or certainly other Christians around me to remind me of my destiny in life, recharging FAITH into my soul. In Jesus name, I always ask and pray, AMEN!!!!

At the cross road...

2008-05-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

I thought I'd blown out both my rehearsal and CHS Idol competition, so I was just wondering...ok, I'll just forget what happened that day, continue to bury my head back to homeworks and studies...till.........(few days later)...... "So, is the results out yet???" a familiar voice asked. I said, "I dunno, dun care." (but actually I care, alot indeed!) A day after, she asked the same question, and it was the same answer I gave her. =p AND....the day after (FINALLY) CHS Idol results fresh from the oven.....AHHHH! Kinda can't believe it, WHAT! 1st runner up (second larr) *fainted* Aiyayai...Dear Father Lord, THANK YOU! T.T (tears of euphoria) Back to the rehearsal case, well well, not gonna give up that easily too. Maybe it's God's will we didn't make it though, since the PA system at the sport centre so teruk. Haiz, we heard other groups sang, not that well...COS OF THE PA SYSTEM LARR! >.< Fortunately, I got to know a friend and my frenship with others got to grow a li'l bit, so overall there's good there's bad.

2008-05-02T23:05:00.001+08:00

Heyz, seriously thank dearest Heavenly Father for this dream... Once again, I got to sing with u all (Phloe, Jewel & Amanda) Well, it's ok skipping everyday's recess time meal. Yup, no doubt, I LOVE food, glorious food, but if comes to music (almost my everything) Nah, it's fine... Masih boleh ikat perut... Ehehehe~~~ About the whole "Teacher's Day performance" thing...to those i gave hope and brought disappointment to, I'm truly S-O-R-R-Y about it.. T.T I really didn't want such thing to happen, I understand u too have that dream deep inside u, maybe......maybe ....maybe at the first place I shouldn't start all these without making sure, please....don't feel sore about it, no hard feelings right?! Also, HC, thanks a lot for ya help. Hope I didn't bring u much problem. By the way, HOW HOW HOW to settle the group, the song, the parts (lyrics..who sing which part ==") Can we blend our voices together???? @@ The rehearsal IS THIS COMING TUESDAY!!! AARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Am...I...going way too far?! As the salt and light, to be a good student, am i not focusing enough in my studies...I felt...the whole "dream" thing is taking over me, but...zzz i really like this feeling, I call it the "blood rushing moment" *__* The inner me wanna poof out, wanna present out what she's got, wanna be under spotlights, wanna walk the red carpet...juz wanna be....HERSELF! Phloe, don't worry, no matter what happens, I won't easily give up on this dream, 'cos I believe this is also a gift from God, not sure whether singing is my talent or not, I still wanna thank God for all that gotta do with the dream we both have in mind...^___^ Eh, remember oo, after SPM we have unsettled things to do...(u know what) Heehee~~~